Thank you for your art and your inspiration. It’s desperately sad to know you were in so much pain, and I resent depression so much for taking away a huge amount of talented people.
If you are seeking help with regard to depression and feelings of suicide, here are a few resources you might like to have a look at:
http://www.lifeline.org.au/
http://www.beyondblue.org.au/
http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/
http://bluepages.anu.edu.au/